Where is the tape
I gotta have it now
There is a sofa on the street
Microwave oven
Thirteen roman coins
Ten east german stamps
Autograph from Christina augilara
Autograph from Bill Hicks
An award to all those who have helped to clean up Tsjernobyl
Speeches from....
On a double lp
You must wipe the table as well
Use a tissue
Use a little warm water
If I was a boy I would have sex with Paris Hilton all day long
But then again I'm not a boy
I'm a girl in a boys body
Teddy bear monkey tall ball
The skins natural magnetism
A mountain of shoes
Seven tons of hair
Airport
Mothers value
Virus
Pig
Department 28
One centimeter
Two
Three
Four
Lipstick
Mass tong
Sugar
Bigbig sausages
Live is so hard and square
I have very sensitive mosques membranes
Brad Pitt will move to Sweden just for me
Say goodbye to your mother
Black hands across the wall
There is your son with deep cuts in his head
And threeseventynine p
The beautifulwonderfullfantastic girl who lives inside you
You are a little me
The world's most beautiful most glamorous little me who goes to all the party's
The nineteenth of June
I sleep like a tree with metrhedelrial on the other side of me
A belt around my neck
Twenty meters
Separate faeces from urine
One times one and a half meters
A cable, naked with a sack over my head
Chemicals
Electricity
A cigarette in my ear
Naked against each other
I'll cry if you don't want to be my friend
I'll be unhappy for the rest of my live if you don't want to be my friend
It doesn't matter that I've only seen you in the movies
I love you anyway
I cannot live without you
I am hiding within you
I have no where else to go
I'm trapped inside of you
And got stuck
I am your child
Your little baby
No you're not my child
You're just some fucking grove
I'll cut you out like a appendix
Will you stop groping me
I don't want you anymore
You do not exist
It's over
And then there was this idiot
Who hacked into my sell phone
And took all the pictures I had in it
And put them on the internet
Twohundredandfortythree grams of bread
Thirtysix grams of meat
Eighteen grams of fat
Eleven grams of corn-flakes
Eight grams of sugar
Five grams of marmalade
Five grams of coffee substitute
They said on tv that I had a migraine attack
They said that I checked in into a new hotel
The checker blanked
A vaccine
A concrete foundation
Today we know that Hall Mathers build up a incredibly tiny building stones called Adams
Have you ever worked at a restaurant?
Do you know where popcorn pops?
Will you pleas get the knife out now?
Will you cut it of now?
You fucking retard
I take anything I get my hands on
Food
Love
Trunks
The subway
C section
Anything
Why should I say no
You only live ones
I saw this thing on tv about Saddam
That's when I decided to go there
And try to help stop the war
But while I was sitting in a taxi
I noticed the driver was looking at me
And I realized he recognized me
And he thought that I was cute
So than I asked if he wanted to have sex with me
And he did
So than he got to
And sadly I missed my plane
So I never made it to Saddam
But as soon as the filming of this movie is done I will go there
Because it is so horrible
There are people dying all the time
They clean and they clean
Where does all this dust come from?
Why should I clean when there are people dying?
What does it matter if I clean?
I can't watch tv anymore
Micas membranes
Connective tissue
Placenta
The newly installed shower
The mouth
The train
The slime block
French fries
Many's
Remember nothing
I only remember that I felt sick
The rest is blank
I have a cloudy memory of sitting in a taxi
With allot of people I do not know
They are laughing at me
They make fun of my clothes And than I think I threw up all over the floor of the taxi
And then there was a voice that said, be welcome, bless you, the lord is with you....
I must be some kind of magnet
I cannot go to the grocery store to by an apple
Without al apple's flying at me
And all the faces on the entire floor
And I think about a carpenter
The guy who made sure that there was a floor where I could walk on in the store
But what if he is dead or sick
What if her daughter, who is ugly and wears glasses and no guy wants to go out with her
Just that day there was a guy who asked her if she wanted to go out with him
And for a second she was so happy
Because she taught he really meant it
But is was just a joke
His friends where around the corner, laughing
Feels like the hole world is forcing its way inside me
Leaving something inside
Something that shapes inside me
Grapes inside my stomach
Like a little baby
A little parasite
I think I am the Virgin Mary
When I walk down the street everyone looks at me
It is because I'm famous
They whisper my name
"Look, did you see who that was?"
But I just walk past
Pretending in didn't hear it
But I know exactly what they are saying
I know exactly what they want
They want to attack me
Tear me to pieces
My particular en treasure
Celebrities
Second world war
Collecting different things
Different methods of torture
Different porn stars
Like for example Savanna
God
Jesus
Mary
As well various catastrophes
Like for example nuclear disasters
Like for example the nuclear disaster at Tsjernobyl
I can see it all before me
Inside my head
There is like a box labeled catastrophes
And inside that box there is another label, nuclear disasters
And inside that box there is a third label, Tsjernobyl
Then I take a carton of yogurt
And the yogurt symbolize all of my life force
Then I pour all the yogurt, I mean, my life force
Into the box labeled Chernobyl
Because I'm going to cool the reactor with the yogurt
And everything turns white
Because I am a super hero who helps mankind
What is the point of being gay?
If you are going to live just like everyone else
Everyone thinks I'm gay but I'm not
They called me a faggot when I was seven years old
But I borrowed a book from the library so I know that I'm something else
I am a woman
Which is not really the same as being gay is it?
The fact is I hate gays
I think homosexuality has become a cancerous tumor on society
You're not aloud to say that
But I'm saying it anyway
Stop
Nobody listens when you say things like that
You just make yourself ridiculous
I took it all
Highly concentrated
Evening, premium, oil
Essential, faddy, passage
They are important for my hormonal balance
And for my skin
A thousand milligrams per capsule
Silver
Ammonia
Hi honey
Where are you
A wake up
A city build out of ribs
Why can't I, according to all the votes
I'm one of the sexiest woman in the world
Hang on to my man
Yes please
Farewell
Nice to have met you
See you soon
Goodbye
Then I lived in Madrid for two years
I lived like a transvestite
I was not a transvestite
They lived in a tinytiny apartment
With a guy from Romania
I think he was I gypsy
But he only admitted it once
When he was so high so high
So that his head was so high up in the clouds he could poke god in the butt
That's when he said he was a gypsy
Later I walked back and forth outside Gucci
And Prada
And Dior
Hoping David Beckham would come out
And then I would trip
And he would help me up
And then he would see who I was
And then he would see that I am his lost, little, boy
What are you waiting for?
For me to jump out of the window
Is that what you are waiting for?
The new problem is solved
Or should I cut it of myself
Is that what you want?
Can you please take out the knife now?
Please?
Can we do it now today?
Because today I have the most beautiful eyes in the world
I'm on the cover of all the magazines
Today I can do anything
Here comes Witney Houston
I'll help here get on track again
I can go out with as many guys as I like
No you can not
Yes I can
The subway is full of idiots who are going to die
But then the next day after he'd come back to earth again he denied the whole thing
He said he wasn't a gypsy at all
Then he said he was from Hungary
But I knew he wasn't
Because I had licked his passport
I licked and I licked
And could tell by the taste it was not a Hungarian passport
I am actually a woman
I don't want it anymore
I don't want to have a willy between my legs
Just not feel very nice to be a woman and have a huge willy hanging between my legs
If you don't take it off now I'll just cut it off myself
I don't want to walk to any more counsels
Bloody piss hand, stop pissing in my stomach
Fine
Carry yourself away so you don't have to deal with me
Than I don't have to deal with you
I don't want to be inside you any longer
I don't wanna be in this movie
I was at a party ad my breast fell out
And everyone laugh's at me
And they thought I let my breast pop out on purpose
Because I wanted the photographer to take tons of pictures of me
But it was really a mistake
Because my dress was so small
I don't know how it happened, it was not on purpose
I miss you so much
I love you
I can't live without you
What are you talking about?
What do you mean miss me?
I'm here with you
Everyone thinks I have breast implants
But I don't
Why doesn't anyone believe me?
Would you please let me go?
Please?
I don't wan to be locked up inside this disgusting body anymore
Everything bleeds ant stinks
Snot runs
Urine flows
They sit in front of the tv wearing in diaper
A school cafeteria is fool of fools
Wo are going to die, some day
Why is everything so sad?
Why is everythingeverythingeverything so sad?
Why do we live such short lives?
Why can't we go on forever?
I don't wanna look like this
I don't want these dyes
I eat six razors for lunch
My skin smells like aspirin
There are such strange rumors about me
Five small embryos
One transformer
One bathroom
Hello?
Nail fell off
I don't think people understand what is means to be as famous as I am
Imagine that as soon as you open the door hundreds of photographers start taking pictures
There is no escape
When you are on vacation their there
When you go out to eat their there
When you are sitting in your car crying there out there in the dark
Trying to kill you with there lightning flashes
It's like prison
It's a nightmare
But it is a nightmare you become addicted to
It's like heroine
If you stop you feel even worse
You lie on the floor shaking
You can't get up
You throw up on the floor
You push your hand in your one vomit
You didn't mean to
I'm sorry I didn't mean to
Sorry
It just happened
I can't control my movements
I try to get up but fall down again
I really prefer organic products
After a day of work with enormous amount of make-up on my face
I wash it all away
With shoe morris glensim oil
My skin feels both smooth and clean
Semen
Strawberries
Oatmeal
Nuts
Chicken
Oranges
Carrots
I make a three foundation
Lipglosssunpowdermellon
Lavenderlangielen
If I don't get enough rest I always use midnight secret from gerlaine
Lookcryoncolhydropowerishadowcrystalpalmmeteorits
Blush delicious lights drops
Glam shine micro shadow
Earth spirits
Star gloss
Sheer radian's
Jokerd massage
Anti-age
Around my mouth
Twentyfour hour non-stop moist rising
Fifethousand liters thermal water in a little jar
The party is physical between my eyebrows
And my forehead reveals
Vertical wrinkles on my cheeks
As a result of breathing problems
Micro crisping sheep's into the nail beds
My skin is rejuvenated from with in
I changed in a taxi
I love champagne
I have the world most beautiful eyes
No I'm sorry
I can't speak any longer
I must go now
There are thirtythousand people who die of hunger every day
And there is a old man who promised me fivehunderd dollars if I spend the entire night with him
And with that kind of money
I can save the life's of one or two people
My name is Jenna Malone
I am an American actress
Its my voice
Graded in California
I never been to Sweden before
I don't know which room I'm staying in
My mouth is full of gelatin
Huge bathtubs full of boiling animal skeletons
My blood is full of fat
There is so many things you have to do
Wash the dishes
Laundry
Go to the bathroom
You got to have money so you can pay the bills
And suddenly its like, I can see into the future
I dreamed that Bradd Pitt broke up with Jennifer Aniston
He got tired of her because she was no longer Rachel
And then in the morning I read that they are going to get a divorce
So then I thought that everything I dream becomes reality
And then became so scared
That I have not dared to go to sleep since than
There is so much hate in my love
There is so much love in my hate
I wore the most tasteless dress of them all
At peters thirtyfifth birthday party
I want you to stay with me
I'm so scared that something will happen to you
Its so dangerous out there
People run right into each other
Like beans of glass
They break and cut each other
There is so many drugs that they can drop in your drink if you turn your head away just for a second
Than you fall asleep
Then they rape you
And take all of your things
And put you in prison
And the mail you receive from the other side of a thick window made of armored glass
They cannot touch you
But suddenly Britney Spears appears
She lifts you up and tells you not to be afraid
She opens her mouth and puts you in
And then she swallows
And down you go into her stomach
And then suddenly a light goes on
Inside Liam an Romania
How the hell did Romania get inside Britney Spears
Good god I have become so fat
You're not fat
I used to be so very thin
You are still thin
I have become so fat
I think I'm pregnant
But you can't be
Yes I can
But we haven't slept with each other
No I know
It's a miracle
A bunch of paparazzi is hiding in the bushes around the stable
Where the Virgin Mary is just about to get birth to Jesus
They're trying to get a shot of her tits
O god what a turn on
This is the best party I have ever been to
It never ends
Everyone just dies all the time
Like flies
This is the happiest moment of my life
I'm sitting at the kitchen table playing table hockey with my father
I'm a Soviet union
He is Sweden
It's evening
It's dark outside
Helonium shines above the table
It's just my father and I
It's just if you're embraced in a cocoon of life
And outside that cocoon there is a great darkness
And then there was this man
Who is in charge of the county health department
He wanted to pay and wash me till I was really really clean
They cost twohunderd dollars each time
And now there is like this crazy hostility bottle
Because nobody wants me anymore
Not the sake ward
I'm welfare
Nor mother
Or father
That's just why I have to live here at the pizza parlour
Until they decided who's to have me
But the man who runs the pizza parlour will sell it soon
And then I don't know where to go
You will just have to live in side your grandmothers disgusting hip replacement
Sooooooo totally fucking disgusting
Won't you please just come here and give me a hug
I'm so sad about everything
I'm so sad about ho we live our lives
And the state of the world
But I'm also very satisfied about being as sad as I am
I enjoyed distancing myself from it al
Through than I become a little superior than I'm exalted like a saint
But than I must punish myself
Then I must force myself to eat
Four bags of chips
I dilated five centimeters
You stick your finger in the hole
I reach inside you with all of my arms
You are dilated six centimeters
A black box inside your heart
Hello everyone
I shall begin by showing you some of my latest purchases from ebay
This is something very special
Two pear of black leather boots which belong to Savanna
The legendary porn star Savana
Whooooo I love veryvery much
I have always had a soft spot for curtain type of beautiful but tragic woman
I've always identified myself within very strongly
And so very much more
Not just identified myself within
I've also felt that after that there souls had moved into me
And now continue to live inside me
These boots are the most expensive I have ever bought
And in second place is this letter from auswitch
It's a prisoners writing to the one he loves
He writes: "you my son, the only one in my life"
In third place there is the German helmet from the second world war
In fourth place there is a collection of letters addressed to Savanna
They are written by various admires
Dear miss Savanna, you've been a nice, American classic beauty
Blonde hair
Baby blue eyes
And a ass that any man or woman would sell their soul to possess
And here is a guy asking her for help
I am wondering if I"m missing out on something
Some days I get a strange feeling
I lie in bed and wonder if this is it
If this is all there is to live
But than when I am together with someone
And we are consumed by passion, than it feels if I am on top of the world
How can one go from feeling so empty to feeling so wonderful?
Do you understand what I am saying?
What am I missing?
Do you have feelings like these?
And how do you deal with them?
Please write me ad the above address
And tell me what you think
It would be greatly appreciated
I take vitamins every day
I go to the hospital
How cane someone as little as I am have room for something so big
How come someone as dirty as I am have room for something so clean
I go to the hospital every day
I sit in the waiting room till they close
I have nowhere else to go
God transform this prior into fire
I just want to dance
But there is only ice in the freezer
A bunch of people dressed as animals
The dolls catch
Cattle
Transformer
You are the world's best mother
I've got a touch of diarrhea
I sit alone in my hotel room
I have to learn my lines for tomorrow
I would really prefer to go out and see the city
But it's such a challenge
So many people crowd around me
Just turns into chaos
I stay in my room and order something from room service
Just a small salad
I don't know who I am
I don't know where I come from
I don't know who my mother is
I don't know who my father is
Someone left me outside in a original basket
I'm terrified
What am I doing?
I want to go home
This is my home
This is al I have
This is my bed
This is my toilet
My bathtub
My tv
My remote control
My mirror
Dilated seven centimeters
I can't close the lid
Everything just pores in
These tinytiny bottles of alcohol
Room key that do not disturb sign
All of the movements from those who have stayed in this room
Are all passing through me
All there thoughts are forced into me
Their breath is forced into me
Their dreams
I must lie motionless like this
Because if I lie motionless, completely still, the thoughts and the dreams will past right threw me
And out of me
If I relax and don't resist
Than they run out of me
They pass trough me
And continue out into space
But if I make just the slightest movement
Than the thoughts will get stuck inside me
And bounce around inside me like a ball in a pinball machine
And continue to bounce forever
And then I break
I crack from within
My skin breaks apart
No
I'm not a celebrity
I'm not an actress
I just pretend
I work here at the hotel
I clean rooms
And sometimes when a room is empty I pretend that I'm staying there
And that I'm a famous actress
Who is making a movie
And during this filming she is staying at this hotel
I'm completely thorn to shreds
I'm radioactive between my legs
I'm covered by a thick layer of lead and concrete
No one can come close to me
Because they'll get cancer
There skin will fall of
There is cancer everywhere
There is cancer in your blood
You can't breath
And when you cough you spit up blood
And your skin is totally black
And there is blood coming from your ears
And there is blood coming from your nose
And your teeth are falling out of your mouth
And your hair is coming out I pieces
And your nails are coming loose
And there is blood coming from your eyes
You have seen too much
I have thought so much about that day
Savanna was in a car crash and got a cut on her face
She was completely destroyed
And thought her career was over
And than she lost the will to live and went home and shot herself in the head
I wish that I had been there
I would have licked up all of your blood
Sucked up your brain from the floor
And spit it back into your head again
No can we just stop now?
I'm to tired to make this movie
I have no energy
I'm to tired
I have a hole in my head
It's just getting bigger and bigger and all my brains are running out like red flowers and my long blond hair
I will now leave everything
I will now leave this planet
There is no one to eat up all the food in the cupboard
I leave behind all the boxes of cereal that I never got when I was little
The letter I've never sent to my father
All the news paper articles I've saved with such care
And every time my real name was mentioned I crossed it out with a black magic marker
So that it disappeared
Disappeared
And disappeared
You're now rotting little Savanna
Little darling
You're pale skin and you're fractals
And the little crack I've always wanted to see
Now we shall never see it again
No longer can a Jesus child emerge from there
Now it no longer exists
I clean and clean but it doesn't help
Everyone laughs at me when I put on my prettiest dress
Did you know there was one who survived Tsjernobyl
It was a miracle
He was inside the reactor
All of his colleagues died
His skin was black
When they pulled the sheet of at the hospital the skin came with it
But he survived
And he is still alive
But his skin doesn't work as it should
He can't touch oil
Because his skin will break
You stared straight into the fire
You're eyes melt
They are bleeding
You're eyes sockets are bleeding
You've seen to much
You have touched to much
And there are to many who have touched you
That's a miracle that you live
It's I miracle that you are still alive
Doctors can't explain it.
They say it's a miracle
I know I only got this part because I'm fat
I got it because the people at the film company think that all fat people are tragic
But in reality I'm not at all like this roll
It's not me
It's just a roll
I need a food file
I have calluses on my heels
My fingers itch all the time
It's like larva under my skin
Did you know that those sick sick people have made my tv scene
David and Victoria Beckham is Joseph and Mary
And above all Kyle Minogue has the angel Gabriel
Well here I am with my cute little laughs above David and Victoria
What's the point of cute little laughs?
What's the point of anything?
You just end up dying
Than it doesn't matter
There you lie in your grave with your cute little laughs, it is not so cute anymore
It's full of worms
So why should I take my medicine
I'm only going to die
Or have you invented a new medicine that will fix everything
Than you can make of the whole world a paradise
Where everyone feels good and nobody feels bad
And no one feels fad and ugly
Can you do that?
In that case you can also make sure I don%'t have to go to anymore Oscar galas
It's so frustrating
Everyone just imitates me
Everyone wants to wear the same dress
But next year I'll show them
I'll come dressed as an astronaut
And I'll flood in space
I'll drop an atomic bon upon the earth
I'll just fly around in space
And watch you crawl trough the ashes
Trying to breathe live into your disgusting spoiled brads who no longer have any skin
I think that winter's most important item is poncho
My favorite drink is a strawberry decory
Twentythird of November
They try to leave the apartment
But the first thing I saw when I went out there where the headlines
They said Kyle Minogue had breast cancer
Then a nine-year-old boy died while playing football
I can't close my eyes
You have had my eyelids removed
I'm so veryvery sad
So veryvery horrible
Imagine he just died
He just collapsed and died
I can't live with all this sorrow
I must chop it up into tiny little pieces
Please God why must small children die while playing football?
I can't get up
My legs won't carry me
Why must Kyle Minogue have breast cancer?
It is too hard
I don't want to live
I'm a disgusting fat trunk full of shit
Can't
Coca cola
Cody
A dead bird
An empty bottle of dish soap
Skeleton
Stereophony
Ballet shoes
Implant zerothreesixseven
Please don't kick
Won't you please just lie still in there
My stomach is completely sore
I'm so tired
I got to sleep a bit
People don't understand how difficult it is walking around carry another person all the time
If you don't stop kicking I will get an abortion
You're little body is so delicate
Suddenly you are in the emergency room bleedingandbleeding
My little darling you must be still as a mouse
But nobody hears what you say
Because they might get angry and hate you
Kidnap you
I don't know where you are
Jesus
I don't know where you are
Hello?
I'm your mother
Won't you give me a call?
A fossil of a dinosaurs egg
A thee spoon in memory of princess Diana
A named tag that once belonged to the Swedish tv personality Claves Ellsberg
A plate in memory of Ben Crosby who died in nineteeseventyseven
A little piece of meteorite
A little chip of the berlin wall
A carton of milk
A back of chips
My bikini line is growing out
A mess of thorny branches
There was someone begging outside of the grocery store
So I told him he could go home with me and take what he wanted
He was so totally shocked
And didn't want to go
I'm not like that
I would have said yes
And then I would have taken as much as I can carry
I'm not the one to say no
I say yes to everything
Refrigerator
Dishwashers
A spice girls watch
A letter from the eastern front
It's addressed to L.C. Kolowsky in Berlin
The seventh of April nineteenfourtyfour
A meteorite from a asteroid between Jupiter and mars
I can't close the lid
There is no lid
I'm so unbelievable pretty
Everyone wants to be with me all the time
I have so much money
Go to so many parties
I have a boyfriend
He is so hansom
He thinks I'm so cool and pretty and funny and sexy and smart
I have such soft skin
Such beautiful eyes
He can lie in my bed and just stare into my eyes for hours and hours
We can stay in bed the whole day
Just lying there holding each other
Kissing each other
Stroking each other
But suddenly it all ends
Everything collapses
Suddenly I realize he doesn't exist
I've been alone the whole time
I've just been speaking to myself
He didn't stroke me
Because he doesn't exist
It's like a blow to the head
I want to kill myself
I'm so ashamed of myself
I'm so awful
I'm so disgusting
I shouldn't be aloud to live
And then I cut myself in the arms as deep as I can
And then I hate myself even more because it's so stereotypical to cut yourself
Every stupid teenage girls cuts herself
Its like I'm just imitating others
I just do what everybody else does
And then I just want to die
Goodnight
See you in the morning
What time is it?
Where are my pants?
Monday
Tuesday
Wednesday
Thursday
Friday
This is my husband
This is my wife
This is my son
This is my daughter
This is my girlfriend
This is my boyfriend
I have to shave
Where are my panties
This is a copy of Jennifer Lopez's engagement ring
The real thing costs fivemillion dollars
This ring costs ten dollars
From a small distance you can see the difference
But if you come close...
If you get up at six in the morning
And begin the day by jogging
Than you follow op with weights
Than you can see the difference
In the afternoon you do double-time on the running machine
Than you can see I'm just a copy
And in the evening another round of jogging
And than I fly to Tokyo
Than I fly to Sao Paulo
Then I fly to New York
The monitor's inside the airplane shows smashed faces
Fluffy clouds under us
Air temperature -51 Celsius
Altitude then thousandninehundredandseventytwo meters
Speed eighthundredandthirty two kilometers per hour
Little baby sleeps in a basket
A man stands on his toes
Two women's from Germany try to sleep under a red blanket
The water bottles become compressed
The smashed face slowly turns upwards to heaven
I feel like a hospital bed
You can lie on top of me now
Can you see into my eyes?
I bind my body apart and show you the entire crack
A mountain of clothes
Four tons of cut hair
The taxi is wide open
Here I am kissing Tom Cruise
Here I am kissing Kathy Holmes
I can't eat
Why should I eat when children in Africa can't?
Food tastes like ashes or sand
Tastes like someone vomited on a plate
Sublet
Siena
Cientee
Lou Larry
Miller
My gardener burnt down
I do onehundred sit ups
Alia damcul dacasta
Shanon alsoelanson will see
Russel Croe's jet lag
Loneliness
Adrenaline
The telephone in my face
My parents have turned their bedroom into a gas chamber
I run but I don't get anywhere
It's the same old wimpy me
Inside the same old pathetic body
Transcend with cheap perfume
What do you mean cheap perfume? It's Tommy Hilfiger
No it's not
It's a crappy cheap copy you've bought in Thailand
You stink like a whore all the way trough your skin to the depths of your shrunken brown heart
That's where I live
In your disgusting dirty horrible heart
I trip and slide and never make it in time
The house next door is burning
There is something black in the street
The ambulance comes
They roll out a gurney
I get up from the gurney and walked to the door
Want to know what happened when I was born?
What happened was that one day my mother was pregnant
So that my dad left because he never slept with my mom
So I couldn't be his child.
But than a angel with a cute little ass came to my dad and said that he should not be afraid
Because it was gods child that laid in my moms stomach
And the child would save humanity
So my dad stayed with my mom
But when I came out of my moms stomach
I wasn't really quite what they had expected
I didn't look like a normal child
They didn't see that is was alive
So they quickly drove me by ambulance to mothers breast
But I didn't want to suck
So they tried to feed me ravioli but I didn't wan to eat
And they put me on the beck of a ladybug
And the ladybug had to walk around with me on its beck
Because they thought I might come to live if I had something fun to do
But it didn't help
So then they didn't know what to do
It seemed nothing would help
So they gave up
And threw me into a plastic bag
And my dad throw the plastic bag down the garbage shoot
He opened the door
And suddenly they threw themselves upon him
All my fans
All the paparazzi I gathered outside the door
I threw myself upon my dad
And took the garbage bag from him.
I run away with the bag
The one that I was in
End than I had to go to a psychologist
I had to take medication
But they really dried out my mouth
My mouth was so dry that I could no longer leave the apartment
Because the air out there felt like sand
And that's why I was late for my own premiere
It's terrible
Photographers where out of their mind
My son was born blind in a handicap because of my addictions
I have more than threehundred pears of jeans at home in my gigantic closet
I've had sex with four spice girls
I'm surrounded by tragedy
I get a shock when I see myself naked
I don't wear panties under my jeans
Because than your ass looks the best
When I get hungry I drink a glass of water
Oke lets do a little celebrity quiz
Who never wears panties with jeans?
Who has a son who is blind and handicapped?
Who is late for their one premiere?
Who had sex with four spice girls?
Who is surrounded by tragedy?
Who drinks a glass of water?
Oke
Here comes the answer
The answer to all the questions is....
...Jesus
We are all Jesus
Mary is our disappointed mother
Joseph is our confused stepfather who doesn't get anything
Our real biological father is God and Heaven
The same heartbeat within us all
But why was I given to this roll?
Was it because I was the best?
Was it because I was the prettiest?
What if they are all a bunch of actors better than me?
But who aren't just pretty thin or whatever it is
And why did you have to stuff my child into my uterus?
Was it because I was pretty?
The most perfect for the pictures you put up everywhere in all the churches
Or was it because I was so young and naive that I didn't dare say no?
Can't just be a matter of coincidence
Do you believe in coincidence?
I don't
Did you think I was the sexiest of all the virgins in Palestine?
Is that why?
But are you sure I was a virgin?
I want to fit it in your child
Won't that be a little embarrassing?
What if I just lied to you and said that I have never been with a other man
What if there are places not even you can see
Are there such places?
Zeroseventhreefive
Zeroninethreethreeeight
There are places where my dad doesn't see me
Small recesses
Where I feel so alone
Where I feel so free
My psychologist says I have to stop reading gossip magazines
Or at least cut down
But you're so cute
I'm getting senile
You have such lovely eyes
I'm getting cancer
Parkinson
Alzheimer
ADD
Glad I have a shovel
A box
Eight centimeters
Here in this box
I lay down all my love for you
Here I lay down all my love for you
Here I lay down all my love
I need to use my mouth
I need to use all of my intestines
You are so sweet
You just like me
It's like I'm looking at myself
I think we met when we where small
I think we met on a fairy somewhere
And now spread your legs please
I'm going to shove my bacteria into you
And the bacteria grows to be a little tree
And the tree grows into a rope
And the rope stiffens to a chain
And the chain is so strong it will never break
I've plied sixteen times to drama school but I've never been accepted
I'm convicted because I'm to fat
I try to explain this because I have a little baby in my belly
But they don't want to listen to me
It doesn't matter that your are fat
I love you anyway
Mein liebe liebe
I want you
I wish I where you
I wish you where the one who wanted me
No one has ever wanted me
No one has even chosen me
I was the one who was always chosen last in gym class when I went to school
And the horriblehorrible place a grew up
That I don't even wan t say its name
There was never anybody there who wanted me
Not even me
Mein liebeliebeliebeliebe
All of you're orifices are warm and tight
Which lead into a wonderful temple
And there inside it's so light
It's like death
It's like coming to heaven
Thrown completely open
And I'll let the whole world enter me
There is room for everything in me
Dishes
And classes
And cars
And all of Africa
All from Romania
And the sun can live in me
All of it's light
Birds
All those who are sad can enter me
I'm no longer afraid
I no longer close myself
I let everything in
I'm no longer afraid of anything
There is nothing to be afraid of
I open my heart
I welcome all the suffering
You can put it here
I welcome it in into my breast
All of you're instruments of torture
I know you want to get rid of them
You can lay them in my breast
I have cut open my chest cavity
It's not difficult
It's perforated between my ribs
I can take all of your worries
I can take on anything
I can run, jump
And if there is anyone in need a can help out
If your grocery bags are heavy
I can help you
Oh mymy I'm so happy
I can take care of everything
I'm so happy
Why are you giving me all this medicine if I'm so happy?
I'm healthy
You're the one who is sick
I've dilated nine centimeters
My water breaks out of me
Behind the mirror my water breaks into me
Inside I'm a little girl waiting to be born
It is I who is Jesus
It is I who is Jesus his mother
Where is the tape?
I can't live without you
Please get out the tape
You can't live without me
Where is the tape?
I must have the tape
This is where I lived when I was little
And here
And here
And here
This is where I got dressed
This is where the grass grew higher and higher
This is where I crept in and hide
This is where I like waiting
I'm waiting
I'm waiting
My fingers
My head
Ten centimeters
I've dilated ten centimeters
My heart is full

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